Blurgh. Insomnia. But if I am awake I may as well go to the 5:30am lifting session I thought I wouldn’t be able to go to since I’ve been so exhausted.
So I don’t know if you guys know how hard it is to post this. But here is my Belly Progress.
Left: somewhere near my highest weight (highest was 180ish) I was restricting for days at a time followed by binges. I would often purge 2-4 times a week. I began to lose hope because I could never be “pretty.”
I started my fitness journey January 2013 with the 30DS and stuck strictly to body weight exercises for about eight months. I got down to the 140s.
In August 2013 I started lifting. I saw the number on the scale start to rise and started panicking because of certain outlooks about my self and struggling with an eating disorder. I continued lifting anyway, still only eating once or twice a day.
January 2014 I git serious about recovery and I didn’t want to half ass it anymore. I worked my way to four meals a day (2-3kcal) with a helluva lot of crying and obstacles on th way. But I began to see improvements. Both in strength and aesthetic.
When I started eating enough, I had the energy to fuel my workouts and my body had what it needed to function. I started losing my kangaroo pouch (as I called it) and I still have it but it’s smaller now.
I was able to max higher than before. Hitting 225 on bench and th number of pull ups I could do shot up.
Right: Me. Today. 155lbs. Lifter. Rugger. Soccer player. Work in progress.
I still struggle every day with my unhealthy mindset and relapse is always a threat. But I am stronger than the voice inside my head.
And so are you.
Another one! From November. Same weight, different composition. The sweat pants are looser on my thighs, the shirt isn’t as stretched out, and less belly?
Sorry for different mirrors etc. also hey look it’s my bf!
Advantage of packing: found these shorts again!
January 28th——April 17th
Like an 8 lbs difference. Look they zip up now! My legs look better too! They still don’t fit great, but I bet 5 lbs more or more muscle/less fat and they will. I am hoping/planing to bring these with me to Guatemala in three weeks.
Kimsooja (b. Taegu, Korea, 1957, South Korean) - A Reflective Palace Of Rainbows, 2006 The Palacio de Cristal was originally built in the late 1880s in Madrid, Spain. In 2006 artist Kimsooja transformed it into this rainbow reflecting palace. Installations
(Source: kimsooja.com, via seducingthemuse)
Not pleased about this packing thing. So I put on some make up, am about to turn on some House, and am drinking a chocolate protein powder shake with shit tons of instant coffee in it to perk me up.
I feel a bit better now.
Someone help me pack!!! I’ll provide booze and Netflix/music. I may even make you pad Thai. Blurgh.
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well if you decide to do this, i will be here to continue cheering you on with my invisible pompoms! xD
Ooh thank you :)
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I’m doing a half this fall too!!! We got this x
There is a women’s only half August 30th and a Monster half October 25th. I kinda want to do both?? But I am not sure if I will be able to! I really, really, have to start running more.
WHEN PEOPLE SAY YOU HAVE PRIVILEGE THEY ARE NOT SAYING THAT YOU DON’T HAVE ANY PROBLEMS
THEY ARE SAYING YOU DO NOT HAVE THE SPECIFIC PROBLEMS THAT COME FROM OPPRESSION
THIS IS NOT A DIFFICULT CONCEPT